[edit] i know i have so much so much to be thankful for. but sometimes, jealousy and envy just rears up. and i get angry at myself. for being weak. i don't like this very much. ARGHS! [/edit]

with honesty comes relief and release. the knot's untied, and i'm feeling good. but let's just say it wasn't easy reaching here, and i haven't been seeing many good things lately. and i just need to go somewhere that's beautiful and awe-inspiring, that will allow me to believe there's some good in this world again. santorini with hongmin is looking to be the place. there's just something i love about sunsets. and it seems to be the no1. place to see sunsets (:

had a entry. was too personal, private and disturbing i think. shrugs.

perverse is the word.

i wish for some oblivion.

happy thing of the day: i've got at least 3 darlings coming to london at e end of e yr (: goldfish, viola & sonya. yay!